As a few people know, last week I accepted a position with Wowhead writing about professions along with two other amazing content creators – but as it turns out, at this stage in my life I’m simply unable to do the job as well as it deserves, and so before it even started I stepped down.
I’ll be honest, it sucks. It was an ideal job – but I’m also a full time Mom of two, one special needs (autism & global developmental delay), I have multiple sclerosis, my husband is a first responder on shift work, I homeschool – and the day only has 24 hours in it. I simply can’t do all of the things. Even if I want to. I didn’t realize/grasp just how involved it would be with the complete overhaul of professions in Dragonflight, and scheduling around my already busy life was incredibly stressful.
One of the reasons I applied for the job was to prove to myself (and indirectly, to others) that I am more than. When you become a parent it’s so easy to get lost and feel like you are ONLY a parent (my name becomes ‘ABC’s Mom’ and ‘123’s Wife’ 90% of the time, people don’t even address me by my name). As a stay at home Mom with a first responder husband, that ‘lost’ feeling goes even deeper, because everyone else starts to seem a little ‘bigger’ than you. I wanted something that was just me, something to “prove” my value to society, because that’s what I was brought up to believe was important. I know that it’s not, I know what I do is a full time job already, but it’s hard.
Anyway, I apologized for wasting people’s time, and I will continue to write here and help others with making gold, and hopefully I will continue to stream and do other content, but I did want to make this little post explaining things for anyone who might wonder.